Sunday, December 23, 2012

Feelings Talk

I think emotions are ridiculous. And interesting (hence my studying people and how they work). A conclusion that my roommates and I have come to is that you cannot control how you feel, but you can control what you do with those feelings. I personally don't trust my feelings unless they endure for more than a week. Sometimes I feel like my emotions are like the weather- it can be sunny, rainy, or perhaps a thunderstorm, but you wouldn't really know if it was summer or winter unless it was sunny consistently, or the snow stayed. Sometimes it rains in the middle of summer, and sometimes winter surprises us with a warm day. Enough with the metaphors- the point is that I am ridiculous, and rarely even take myself seriously so I would hope others wouldn't either.

I think that's about all I had to say. I felt a lot of emotions this week, but I've just come to the conclusion, again, that it's important to wait things out before taking action. This week has lead to a solid bit of disappointment, but I think it would have been less disappointing had I been more patient and waited for things to endure before taking them seriously. So, lesson learned, again, and here's  to a brighter tomorrow.

Even if we have to learn the same lessons we've learned before, at least it's some sort of progress. It's tempting to be irritated with myself for my delayed ability to catch on, but that too will pass, and everything will be alright.



Sunday, December 9, 2012

Too Much Awesome

A nice quote for you: "Every person is different and has a different contribution to make. No one is destined to fail." -President Henry B. Eyring

On I think Tuesday night, I went over to Brock's and we had one of our deep/interesting conversations. As we mentioned to his roommate's girlfriend, our conversations usually entail how pleased I am with my hair or a new cardigan, his latest idea for a good date, and maybe a spiritual tidbit or two. This week, however, our conversations have included how to have an increase of the Spirit into our lives so that we can be the sort of people that radiate goodness, and stem cell research. I know, the connection is so clear.

So anyway, in our discussion of having an increase of the Spirit, we talked about how much more awesome your life is when you do things God's way. So, that became the goal: to make life awesome.

Here's the crazy thing- it worked! I started looking for opportunities to be good. I figure you can't radiate goodness if you're not doing and thinking good things, so that became my mission. It was nothing major- just holding doors open, smiling more, having a better attitude when driving, little things like that. As I've tried to be a little more good, however, I have been amazed at the change that's taken place within myself. First of all, I'm in a way better mood. And I have found that being in a good mood makes all of my stresses a lot less weighty. I get less headaches, and it's easier to live with myself.

Also- and this is what matters most to me currently- work has been going so well! I was really worried about my missionaries because things were good, but I knew they could be better. It was stressful because I really didn't know what to do, and as their teacher, I felt a lot of personal responsibility. I'm sure there are multiple factors, but as I've tried to make my life more awesome, or more filled with goodness, I've been a lot more inspired as to what I can do to help my missionaries. It has been great.

So, this week has been really good. And I like feeling like I'm doing good things. The only bad thing is that I woke up today feeling rather ill. Perhaps I just wasn't used to the awesomeness that was this week. So, I'm sleeping it off today, and hoping to gear up for another awesome week. Which, it is finals week, so... I better go back to bed.


Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Lashes, Laughter, and Prose

I have made some recent discoveries, or at least had them recently confirmed, on what I am looking for in a man.

But first, let's start with what I am not looking for. I placed prose in the title because it is important to me that a man be intelligent on paper. I understand that spelling and grammar may not be everyone's forte. However, it will take some strong positive traits for me to overlook the wrong your/you're.

On to the positive. Someone who can make me laugh, sincerely, wins my heart every time. Marilyn Monroe once said that if you can make a girl laugh, you can make her do anything. I'm not sure what she was insinuating, but humor is my love language more than anything else.

Anything else, that is, except for eye lashes. Long eye lashes literally make me weak in the knees.

I just paused for a good 3 minutes just thinking about boys with long lashes.

That is all.