Wednesday, July 25, 2012

It's my blog and I'll post what I want to

First of all, I absolutely love this song. One Direction is so cute! If this video doesn't make you feel a little bit better about life in general, well, I don't know what will.

And, I haven't posted in a while, so I figure it's time for an update. I'm coming up on one year of being home from my mission, and I think I can say it has been one of the craziest years of my individual life. I say individual life because I have had crazier/harder times, but they were more like hard times for my family, and it was something that we went through together. This past year though, it has been mostly an independent journey, and it was largely a process of learning to stand on my own feet and become more self reliant in a lot of ways.

I just feel like my life is leveling out, and slowing down. And I am grateful!! It's been interesting transitioning from a mission, and I was a fool to think I was somehow exempt from that transition. I guess it was just different than I expected, and so I thought I was immune. And don't get me wrong- I can fully accept that I'm still transitioning. But that's what life is, isn't it? Just one adaptation to the next. Anyway, I feel like I'm coming to a place in my life where things are more stable, and I can take things in stride. Part of that stability, however, is coming to terms with progression instead of perfection.

This is still a work in progress, but for a while I would keep thinking, "Ok! I'm 23, so... I should be handling things right by now!" I mean come on, 23 is the age where you start doing everything right... right? Wrong. Wrong wrong wrong, at least for me. I have definitely made marked progress since say 21, but I still do and say things I shouldn't. All the time. But, part of my leveling out of life is just letting go of these expectations and just trying to be better today than yesterday, step by step.

Speaking of step by step, line upon line sort of stuff, I gave a talk in church about two weeks ago about becoming like Christ. I referenced a talk by Elder Oaks that discusses how life is a measure of what we've become as opposed to a balance of good acts and bad. In preparing, I learned a lot about having patience with myself, and recognizing that there is peace to be found in the process, not just the destination we may never reach in this life.

So those are my thoughts. I do things wrong, but at least I'm getting better. :)


  1. So what if I have listened to that song 23 times...

  2. So if you've ever seen the Beatles "Help" music video, you would find that a lot of this music video is stolen from it... it must be a British thing... haha love One Direction